Let’s start. I feel so bored. This is not fun at all, in fact it’s not surprising at all. What am I supposed to feel? I feel sorry for you. I know everything,soon or late I dont know why I always happen to know something that has been hidden. I dont know if I would ever tell you these in person or not but it doesn’t really matter. I feel annoyed so Im gonna write it down. Sorry i am a bad decision you’ve made. You shouldn’t choose me. Bad timing and wrong place. Im not interested at all. I don’t blame you for doing stupid things. If the girls don’t join, you guys wouldn’t have the chance to make the “fun party” happen. You guys wanna play, the girls know it but they pretend they don’t and play back. Don’t know whether u guys know or not, but girls are much more complicated and intelligent than u guys are. You guys always get busted. And girls always pretend to be dumb. The so-called “not trust in relationship”, not everybody is qualified for it. U guys “copy” and use it wrongly as an excuse for “i dont wanna be with u because i dun wanna miss out hotter girls.” haha. So boring. Sorry but this kind of game I played ages ago,i hurt u,somebody else hurt me, enough of it. Somehow i feel myself like an old woman„,gosh im only 19. Sorry my feelings and trust are precious and limited. I have used them too much in the past to pay for the experience i have now. I left that kind of childish world for a while already. I dont belong to it anymore. Using your feelings to play and gamble, you guys gonna lose, not gain even 1 piece, im hella sure. I have only a little left in my heart, I dont wanna gamble with my last pence. Im telling you this so you wont get me involved in that world anymore. Im BROKE now. Im afraid if I play with my own feelings, creating new “fake” ones, when someone really loves me comes, I wont be able to love him back. I will not trust even my own feeling, I will consider everything as fake. Sorry I was trying to do something I shouldn’t do, i even did something. I thought maybe I would find it interesting again but now I realize Im not able to feel the fun anymore. I feel bored, it is damn boring because I know what the result gonna be already. Same same same damn thing. Im not telling you these trying to teach you anything or trying to stop you doing this. Keep doing it as long as you feel happy. I really dont care. I only care about myself that’s why I want you to know I dont wanna involve. Maybe you guys really dont trust relationship stuff, u know why? Cause u guys even cheat yourself, one thinks the other is being cheated and vice versa lol, u guys cheat urself that some1 is having a crush on you. It would be amazing if trust even exist in your dictionary. Imagination and reality got twisted and fucked up. Maybe at times u guys will find it impossible to know your true feeling because you are so used to mix everything up; truth and lies, good and bad, reality and ur imagination;; or even food and shit! I dont wanna be one of that bunch of dummies, I dont want to lower myself to play along with u, I dont wanna be miserable like you, desperate and hopeless. So, dont waste time, effort or anything on me, you will get nothing cause im a mean and selfish bitch. There are lots of other people who’re willing to play with you out there, but Im a wrong choice for this. I quit already. I can be a really good friend but Im so bad at being a target, I’ll always let u down. I dont have anything to give, you wont get anything from me, even a piece of shit. Suddenly maybe im getting crazy so I decide to tell you this so u can avoid disappointment. Im becoming heartless„,give or take a little piece,I can hardly feel anything. Good luck and have fun! Cheers!